Waiting...

It is hard to believe that our adoption journey began over 3 1/2 years ago!  After what seemed like endless paperwork, tears, excitement and a lot of research we still felt unsure of what path God had for us.  Our passion is to welcome a child into our home who would not normally be chosen for adoption.  Despite the desperate need for families to adopt orphans, with all of the red tape and other complications, no options seemed to click for our family.  Until we heard about Sarah!  It is hard to explain (and I will tell the story of the day God "conceived" Sarah in our hearts in another post) but when we first heard about the possibility of adopting Sarah...we just "knew" it was the right fit.  We fell in love with her instantly and felt God assuring us that we were supposed to pursue adding Sarah to our family.
We had been told in July 2011 that Cambodia would open up to adoptions in April 2012.  We excitedly waited for that day, looking forward to being able to send in our application to adopt.  We knew that the process would be long even after sending in our application, but we were excited to get started!  In January 2012, we were devastated to find out that Cambodia had delayed their opening date to January 2013.  We waited another year, hoping and praying for a miracle.  Sadly, on January 2, 2013 we found out that although Cambodia had opened up their adoption program...Canada was NOT willing to allow its citizens to adopt Cambodia children.  (Canada is not allowing this for a number of reasons- which I will explain in another post).
We are now back to WAITING again.  For an unknown date when Canada may or may not end up deciding to allow Cambodian adoptions to proceed.
Sarah has no arms.  She needs a family.  She would benefit greatly from the health care opportunities available to her in Canada...such as prosthetics and therapy.  She will be 3 in less than a month and is at a crucial age for bonding and attachment to happen.  James would love a sibling and we desperately want our daughter to be with us.
We are confused.  We have wondered and asked ourselves and God over and over...what are we supposed to do?  Do we "let Sarah go" and "move on" with our lives?  If this is what God knows is best for Sarah...as hard as it would be...we are willing.  BUT we have not felt God leading us this way. We feel as attached and committed to her as when we first began.  We believe that God can make a way where there is no way.  We have hope that one day we will be together!  Please pray for a door to be opened.  We are open to ideas and advice as we explore a way for Sarah to come home.